"All the colors around me started to fade that night I read your text.
My world has turned black and white
because I don't have you any longer.
I know plenty of girls that don't have you.
But there is one who can't seem to let go.
Reach out to her.
Before it is too late.
She gave you everything. Her love, her strength, her promises, her heart.
No one can survive without a heart..
I still think loving you isn't stupid.
They will never see you like I do.
She said once before that she could just be with you forever and sex would not even be necessary, because all that matters is that you are..with her.
When my eyes are closed.
Everything is pitch black and all I can hear is your laughter, our laughter, our voices late at night, the smiles on my face with your voice in my ear.
Those stupid little fights.
The things you told me we could do.
The things I said to you.
Especially I Love You.
I said I always will, no matter what. Right?
Why can't you..be here amber?
You don't think I want to..
Do you think I am just playing you.
I'm never gonna do that to you babe...
Why would you do this to me?
I gave nothing to you but love.
No hurt. No swollen eyes in the a.m.
Tears falling on your skin onto your bed.
That fear of knowing already your not gonna be able to make it there with the only person that can make you happy.
The love of your life.
At a certain date.
Knowing your gonna leave me because I know you won't wait, any longer. No..you've never had to do that.
Saying you'll come here.
That day I was riding the bus with my now lost friend.
You couldn't tell, but my heart was smiling.
You would never cry because we couldn't touch eachother or unsure if we'll ever breathe the same air.
Maybe you can live knowing that.
Maybe you are just a great pretender.
Feeling like you have something to prove with the people around you.
There's plenty of people with eyes opened that know you.
That will never see you like I do.
If surgeons excelled in taking memories out of the human brain.
I would sign up.
Sometimes I wish I never met you, but I know deep down I am very happy I did.
But my heart is controlling my thoughts because I've always known since the first day we spoke.
That I wanted you in my life.
Being together..
Why do you think I came back the second time.
Why did you come back the second time..you know you didn't have to.
You don't even know how hard it is for me to write about you but I can't stop.
We used to be in love.
We still are, you are lieing to your mind.
But your heart will always hold the truth.
That I'm the only girl that was made...for you.
Just know that when all the girls you've known, give up on you or you give up on them.
There will always be the stupid one waiting by the phone.
To start a life in your home.
She won't feel like she'll have to prove anything to anyone.
Because she knows she's always gonna be in love with you.
