New Years

The new year is coming. I have succesfuly
survived another year of pain. I had hoped
that a new year would make me stronger, help
the pain heal. I guess i was wrong. I've learned
that changing the last two numbers after 20
doesn't change much. 2011 and 2012 aren't
that different. I know when I wake up on
January 1st, 2012 my life will be the same.
I don't realy bother with new year resolutions,
either way it still hurts. I know changing
myself won't change the world around me .
Some peaple love the new year, I dread it.
It's just a reminder of how nothing will
ever get better.