I miss you so much dad

When I stand outside and look up at the sky I cant help to think about you. I miss you so much dad! I just wish I had the change to say goodbye, but before I had the change you where gone. It was so sudden. Why is life so cruel. I wish I could see you just once more. Just know that I really love you lots. Its sad to think you will never be at my wedding or see my children. Why did you have to die??? Its not fear!!! But then again live isn't fear. I miss you and love you!!! 