Turning Hollow

Lingering in this darkness I see how we've turned out like water and fire,
Why do I feel you never did anything but to banish my desires.

I sought for my fault, looking for what I might have done wrong,
Continuously asked for apology but you weren't bothered in keeping me between thorns.

I kept thinking why my feelings wouldn't make me any stronger,
That's when I realized, they weren't returned from you any longer.

We argued and fought, you never hesitated in getting out of limits,
Did all to push me down, sucked away all my spirits.

Cursing me, abusing me, they became your routine,
Brought me down to self-harm, I lost my hope within.

I distanced myself, feeling my soul Turning Hollow,
Practiced to be numb, my heart soon turned shallow.

Your hatred always bothers me but I learned it's better not to show,
Cause nothing seems to affect me anymore except for you.

And anything you do hurts or soothes me to the extreme,
But my regrets of the past don't make up for what I feel.

So no matter if it's pain or pleasure you give,
I guess I can't do anything but to put up with it.