A F***ed Up Ride

I hate this,
I'm always crying myself to sleep,
Then I wake up,
Hoping it wont feel so deep

You don't even notice me,
You are my mother
What?
Do you take more notice in another?

I'm going to run,
Its all because of you,
Ain't no way no how,
Nothing you can do

Hating how life is,
Stealing my pride,
Why me?
Why this F***ed up ride?

If I died,
Would I be missed?
All life left me,
Were these scars on my wrists.

If you ever see me,
Will you notice how I'm depressed?
I just don't know,
Do I need a rest?

All I want to feel is loved,
Cared for,
Why cant I feel it,
Is there anymore?

For all of those,
That don't care,
That don't love me,
Come on give me a dare

Nothing could be worse,
Than if you left me,
To sit here alone,
When me and you could be we.

Please everyone rate this, this is how I feel about my life.