Why do I keep writing...

by LivHelen Kernan   Mar 27, 2012


Why do I keep writing...or..keep trying?
I'm not a poet..I don't even know I exists at times!
So how the heck can I explain...

My life has had such ups and downs...
As everyone else has...
I try to focus on the good..but nightmares of the past
Come through...

I'm writing this from my heart..
I feel so despondant about what to do..
Everyone wants me to keep silent...but one..

Something was done when I was young..
I can't remember everything,,,
However the police believe I can help them..
How..I don't know as statue of limitations has run out..

My heart is bleeding...my head ready to explode...
Will God forgive me if I never told...
Would my life become despire cause
I couldn't tell mt story

No one understands how hard it is..
How humilating and hard it is..

I know if I speak out ill be under examination..
Ill be cast in the worst light..
Some will believe it...some won't..
God please help me

I carry his card in my back pocket
Ever since I got it

My biggest fear id that he will be let off..
But what can I DO..
Statues have run out for my case..
And everything he's acused of was after I was gone..
So what does it matter I say

I'm just an invisible person..
No one of importance..
To anyone who matters

Hopefully I manage to decide
What to do and how to handle my choice

Love to all
And hope anyone who understands this
IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT!!
YOUR NOT TO BLAME!!
PLEASE know YOU will survive..just as I have throughtout time!!!

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  • 10 years ago

    by Marky

    "I'm just an invisible person..
    No one of importance..
    To anyone who matters"

    To those who mind what you say don't matter. To those who matter, don't mind what you say... I understand how hard it is and I definitely know how humiliating it is. But if good comes from it, then that's something to take comfort in.
    But I challenge anyone to belittle you for not talking. It takes a hell of a lot of courage to speak up, but in ways many times more not to.

    Chin up, head up, don't let the buggers get you down.

  • 11 years ago

    by Steven Beesley

    Each of us write for our own reasons, I write beacuse of my love for words and word play.

    "I'm writing this from my heart..
    I feel so despondant about what to do..
    Everyone wants me to keep silent...but one.."

    ^^ This stanza immediately caught my attention, this is what we should all do, write from our heart, but certainly do not feel despondnant! Keep writing!

    "My heart is bleeding...my head ready to explode...
    Will God forgive me if I never told...
    Would my life become despire cause
    I couldn't tell mt story."

    ^^ Very raw and heartfelt emotions, each one of us feel like this from time to time and letting your emotions out in writing is often a Godsend. Oh, btw there seems to be a typo - "mt" I think you meant to type "my" and hit the t key.

    Chin up and carry on, you are not alone!

    Good write!

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