What happened?

How does it feel to be happy? Please tell me this now.
Am i to lost to be saved? Can I make it somehow?
I thought about the day that I want to fly away.
And who I'd write my letters to and in them what to say.
I thought about reactions and then tuned them out.
And who would miss me the most and brake the hatred shout.
How does it feel to be happy? Please tell me this now.
As I fly in the sky I can forget somehow.
So as this day is today I need to say goodbye.
So goodbye everyone I love you find the letters and please don't cry.