I wanna...

They say depression is a gift,
It lets you see the truth.

I don't wanna see the truth anymore,
I don't wanna be afraid to go out,
I don't wanna have to think like this,
I don't wanna hate the way I look,
I don't wanna hate the way I am,
I don't wanna be like this.

I wanna be like a normal teenage girl,
I wanna have fun,
I wanna love the skin I'm in,
I wanna be proud of myself,
I wanna be confident,
I wanna live a lie,
If I can be happy.

I wanna be saved,
I don't wanna be unhappy,
I don't wanna be a broken person,
I wanna be loved.

I wanna be someone else,
I wanna be that girl,
The one that makes your head turn as she walks past,
The one that cares what no one thinks but herself,
But all I'll be is the girl that could brighten your day,
Yet not her own.

The one that let you go,
The one that smiled when she did it,
The one who's heart shattered,
When you walked away,
And didn't look back,
That's the type of girl I am,
The type of girl who's afraid to say what she feels,
Even if it breaks her heart in the process,
Even if it breaks her...

I'm a broken person,
I don't wanna be,
But I am.