She Lives A LI(f)E. . .

It felt a little better today
I looked at myself
and turned away, i knew
would never be okay

My lips did smiled today
and felt that it rained again
Still the pain is the same
i think it didn't wash it all away

Believe me i did try again today
all my scars to paint away
it seems it'd rather take
another day to make the way

Shall i feel that I'm happy again
so I'd tell them "see I'm okay"
don't try to figure that out,
cos this heart doesn't feel that way

Have i not told u, i wanted to get away
away from this crazy feeling
frustrating and reeling,
that's killing me day by day

I battled with my anger again today
i won, i lost & i blamed my day
stumbled on tears and I'm broken again
tell me what did i gain today?