You say you love me but your love isn't unconditional
a true father would love me no matter what.
you say i don't love you but i do.
your guilt trip is starting to fade into something more
it's your fault im depressed, yet everything is my fault
you are irresponsible. you left your other children,didn't take responsibility
and now you are making the same mistake.
Ill take your game to the next level.
i've warned you before im not afraid to die, but i'll do it now, you'll see
you don't love me father i can fix that, take away the burden that is me...
you make sacrifices for me yet act as if i wasn't worth it.
i'll show you how worthless i really am.
i've cut before but you havent taken the hint.
do i really have to take it up a step.
you are ungrateful father.
i try to act happy while im depressed. you say you will only love me if i make good grades., if im not a lesbian,if i change who i am.
why? what did i ever do wrong to deserve your hate.
i know you left mom for me, to get away from the drugs.
its not my fault i look like her, or that you take all the anger you have for my mom out on me.
i dont deserve your anger. im still a teen, a child
experimenting the world.
since i am the thing that fuels your hate i will dissapear.
it will only hurt me for a bit then i will be forgotten.
a bullet to the head,a cut vein,suffacation. so many ways to end your pain. ill do it now father, to show that i want you to be happy.
im putting the gun to my head father, your burdens finally lifting.
im pulling back the trigger, im almost gone father.
and now i squeeze and let go, the burden i am is gone, erased from this world.
now good bye father, your memory of me fades.
now your truly happy father, and i am happy for you.
all it took was a suicide, the final proof that i love u even through all your mistakes,
good bye father.
