Please understand...

She laughs as I bleed,
She laughs as I cry.
She'll laugh even harder
the day that I die.

I've fought back before,
but I'm done trying.
Just look what she's done!
I'm slowly dying.

Let me OD.
Let me end this pain.
That will be better
than going insane.

I no longer wish
to live in this world.
I'll no longer be
such a "perfect" girl.

I refuse to smile.
I won't live a lie.
You know that means
I have to die.

So, don't reach out.
Don't give me your hand.
I'm not worthy of love.
Please understand.

I wrote this to some of my friends who know me very well. Maybe someday they'll find it and read it.