Moments after Suicide

Wake my dead soul
It's trapped in darkness
Forever behold
Heartbroken; I am bleeding.

Heart shatter into pieces,
Dreams are nightmares and nightmares reality.
Decaying from inside out; that's what this is,
My heart exploded.

Worms crawling in my soul;
Slowly they leave abandon holes.
Not to mention the blood splattered among these walls
As my heart was shattered into oblivion.

Ruby that is violently painted among black walls,
Visible to me but to others;
Not at all.
I never could imagine I'd hit this hard from a short easy made fall.

No lights on, eyes closed shut.
Trying to awaken from a nightmare that has just begun.
Wake me, can anybody save me?

Left alone it seems,
I'm stuck imagining what I would have been
If you hadn't let me be.

Would my life had ended better?
Would I have had wings full of white feathers?
Could my heart have repaired itself?
I highly doubt it.

My soul left to re-live feelings of the past,
Screams from hell can be heard as my lost soul falls even farther.

I'm burning and cuts on my wrist and legs are being ripped open,
A pain I'm not able to compare.
My soul is slowly being eaten away.
Wake me from this despair.