This Hole

I've tried so hard in so many ways,
To move on,
And forget what it was,
That we had.
I thought that if I filled your place,
With another,
That I could forget what it was like,
When it was you there instead.
I tried to focus on my babies,
But our baby's face,
All it does is remind me of you.
I've tried to fill the hole,
With nothing,
With emptiness,
With numbness,
And none of it works.
None of it works,
No matter what I try,
I am reminded of you,
This house is full of memories,
THat I cant escape.
I toss and turn every night,
Dreaming of you,
Waking and asleep.
I am slowly beginning to embrace,
This loneliness,
I've come to realize,
Its not going anywhere,
Unless you come back.
So here I go,
Embracing this loneliness,
Praying I can hang on,
For as long as it takes,
For you to come back,
Or for me to heal.