Everyday i sleep all day because i barely wanna be alive much less sit around with everyone and pretend to be happy beacuse i couldnt bare to see you sad to mommy i know you wouldnt think that im sad but i am so sad but id never part of my sadness is knowing your sick and youll never get better and my soul wouldnt be alive without you every time something goes wrong in my life i fall apart i know when you see me cry when you yell at me you think im just a child or being a brat but its deeper than that im sad and you dont get it do you know how many times a day a year a month i cry to many to count and it makes me sad my dad has stopped talking to me beacuse i told him i didnt like the way he treated me he practically told me i was fat all day but i was mad when i told him off now all i do is burst into tears when i think about him how much i feel regected by him and the world and when your mad at me i feel like theres nobody else in the world that loves and it would be better if i was gone its been a year since my daddy has talked to me he dosent answer my texts and he didnt even text me happy birthday or christmas now that hurt alot and my brother is so mean to me im sure he hates me for reasons i dont know and i just wish i was dead already and i have liked many guys that never liked me back and i feel unwanted.
