Repair

How long you've been gone,
it finally hit me.
I feel all the pain,
but refuse to scream.

My heart has a hole
that I know you won't fill.
It's like there's a void
that's holding me still.

My thoughts are complicated.
They become a muddy mess.
We used to get along great,
until there was stress.

Our friendship was strong,
but it wasn't unbreakable.
I told you my secret.
We became more unstable.

It lasted for days.
I recall our big fight.
We both used harsh words
as I cried day and night.

Back then, I didn't know
how much my words stung.
When I realized, I thought
our friendship was sunk.

Six months went by
without a call.
I'd messed it up,
I'd ruined it all.

But then came the day
when you picked up the phone.
You were in town for a bit.
You were finally home.

We spent the day talking
and it didn't take long
for our trust to reform.
This friendship is strong.

Now, things are different.
They'll never be the same.
But that's okay, I still love you.
And that will never change.