Ive been dead for a while

~ I've been dead for a while ~
At night I look up at the sky wishing that death will come with the light and when the night comes with memories of you in my head I remember that we are both dead. Since you died I have slowly slipped away the only way to know im really still breathing is to feel the pain, my skin is numb but the razorblade always makes a stain. My tears of hurt and sadness are flowing red and free. But know body understands this pain not one of them can see. Because I hide it deep inside locked away inside me. But if they seen through my sleeves and looked behind my smile they would finally see that I've been dead for a while.