I just don't understand

It's getting harder everyday
to hold on to this rope
that keeps me clinging to sanity
I'm not sure how to cope

I think about you constantly
our memories are stuck on replay
because I'm afraid to loose the image
of the smile that took my breath away

I'm trying to stay strong
but I don't know if I can
if feels like I'm losing grip
I just don't understand

I wish that I could see you
or just say I love you, I'm sorry, goodbye
instead im fighting the urge
to break down everyday and cry

Im trying hard I hope you see
how much I really cared
I promise I will never forget
every moment we ever shared.

I miss you more than anything
I just want to hold you tight
and hear you tell me once again
things will be all right

So for you I'll plaster this smile on
so everyone thinks I'm okay
even though deep down inside
I'm slowly breaking away.