Grey Skies And Self Reflection

The air
It seems so heavy
I take deep breaths
Of whatever is floating
In this room
Taste old and sullen
Like every dream, I have forgotten

An inability to move
Is dragging me down
I've caressed and soothed it
Helped it foster
When times got rough
I smelted and hammered out
The bonds with which it now holds me
This plunge didn't seem so fast
Not at first anyway

Someone told me once
If clouds take over my sky
Bring back a smile or a fond memory
And paint that sky blue
It doesn't seem that easy
I think I've been lied to

I reopen wounds
Peer into holes
And find nothing missing
All my parts in place
But something is so different
Something I can't bare to face

Someone told me once
That there is nothing time can't heal
I think I've been lied to
I think I've lied too