This Guy I Love

This guy i love him but forever have i lost him
not realizing this thing called sin
not realizing the true love within
my life starting to slim

i cried everynight and ive lost all hope
i lie around screaming, bleeding
death around me screatching
holding the thing called rope

to take my life tonight would be to easy
for i am immortal i can not die
i try and try for all i do is cry
im called a whole book of things especially easy

when i do not sleep around nor be a s***
i keep to myself and drown myself in fear
that poison water called b**r
it makes me shout and scream and make a very deep cut

across my wrist and across the vain
the only thing i want is our blood to run together
my hopes becoming like a feather
but our love has become inhumaine

for now i leave i wish you well
for i am gone no longer giving you h***