Polaris

by Dawn   Oct 4, 2012


The wind picks up beneath the stars, and my
breath is faster. I try to laugh it all off and
push the thought of you and your old PlayStation
controller away, but it seems impossible. I
have come to detest the word, because it shows
boundaries that I can't cross, rifts that I haven't
taken the time to balance my way through.

I still prefer your opinion. Is this... wrong?

You made a point that night, repeatedly telling me
that love is not just with words. That you didn't need
to speak, to say I love you like I had done countless times
and still do. I brushed it off though, tried to pick myself
up and reminded myself you wouldn't just leave me
hanging. But what's the empty void settling in my chest?

Couldn't you say it, once? Would it hurt you, like it hurts me..?

"I suppose..." I used to cling to every word
spoken, every letter I counted showing me
a different constellation in the sky. But it's
lost meaning now and you probably like it
this way. When I sit alone, under the constellations
that once mapped the way to your secrets...

They loom over me in your absence and I can't
find the love. It escapes me, running from my finger
tips to the ankles of your blue jeans. Splashes
of navy blue work their way to your wrists,
and I have decided. Scatter brained, maybe.

It's time for me to find Aquarius and let go.

I have found the Polaris, but your gentle hands are
no longer here to guide me, I'm lost at the north star.

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  • 11 years ago

    by Courageous Dreamer

    I feel like this is about a relationship went bad because love was never expressed enough like you wanted, neither through words nor actions because he was often too wrapped up in other interests, and not you. Or maybe on second thought, the reference to the PlayStation was a play on words saying he 'played' you. You begin to realize that the love wasn't mean to be, & that's heartbreaking. It's really sad when 'I love you' loses its meaning, I too believe it's important but when expressed too often it can lose its meaning also, though if you mean it each time that may not be the case. Men seem to express love less than females, yet I feel like they have their own ways of doing so though they may not always say the loving words we look for.

    The ending of this poem is so strong! I loved every bit of it...so brilliant, love the way your mind works. I feel like even though this poem is sad, I feel like the ending could be a way of saying though you're lost & devastated, that love will find it's way, the whole idea of the constellations makes one feel dreamy and feel hopeful that love can be found once again.

    This is one amazing poem, I love everything about it!

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