Not myself anymore...

I guess when u hold stuff in for such a long time
it has a lasting effect on you...
You basically start giving up, you just don't care
anymore.
You start feeling out of it, walking around like a
zombie.. Only difference is your still alive.
This is me, this is my story.
I don't feel like myself anymore, im always anxious,
never happy..
I guess that what happens when your mom dies and you have a father that doesn't care about you anymore..
My life is so messed up, maybe that's why i am too.