Change in me.

Havent you noticed? Any of you? Youre my friends arent you supposed to see these types of changes. My smile doesnt meet my eyes. Its actually just a fake smile I wear so no one asks me if im okay. My laugh its a fake too. But the tears I cry when no one is watching they are real. The frown I wear when Im all alone locked away in my dark cold room its real.

Im tired of hearing "are you okay?" "is something wrong?" do you want to talk about it?"

My answer no one hears. Give me someone who understands. Someone whos mom died when they were young. Someone who wont judge. Someone with the same problems as me. Some who like me needs help too. You may be my friend but you dont understand me. your mom takes you to the mall she helps you with your homework tucks you in at night. Mine she watches me from the sky. She cant touch me help me with my homework or take me to the mall. She cant even talk to me. You dont feel the pain I feel being judged because I dont have a mom. Being judged for the other problems I have. My life is poor miserable. For awhile I was happy but now you cant even see the changes in me.....