As I pick up the pieces of my broken heart,
Nostalgia transports me back to the start.
The nervousness, the second guess,
As I longed for your caress.
Summoning the courage to make the first move,
I tried so hard to appear smooth.
Only later did you mention,
That all along you knew my intention.
My eagerness was a give away sign,
Along with my texts to Brian.
You knew it all yet remained cool,
Just having fun with your cuddly fool.
I can't be mad, I loved the chase,
The feigned coyness, your tender grace.
When your perfect lips first touched mine,
My heart exploded in a sensation divine.
The electricity that coursed through my veins,
Was so intense it bordered on pain,
I couldn't believe my own dumb luck,
You left me blitzed, completely starstruck.
All along I knew what was inevitable,
But that made it no less real and no less terrible,
That so very soon you were destined to go,
That our love would never grow.
Yet all the same I dived right in,
And in your waters I did swim,
You even left me some of your innocence,
While I just marveled at your magnificence.
Deep down I knew it would never be,
Us together, you and me,
Abandoned with all of my pain,
Alone with it to go insane.
I miss you more than I would have believed,
It's obvious that my heart was deceived,
Despite the logic in my mind,
My soul had always expected to find,
You there waiting the very next day,
And together we would play.
Alas this was not the case,
Yet I cannot simply erase,
The sweet memories from my mind,
Though now they make me want to cry.
Better to have loved and lost?
I'm not so sure if this is the cost.
I won't forget you for yet a while,
Your pretty eyes, your teasing smile.
The way your hair felt in my hand,
As I stroked back every strand.
Guess there's not much left to say,
Only I wish you could have stayed.
