Remember When (Unrequited)

I just wanted that vicarious connection
and that connection became my infection
it was an ocean leading to the scars of rejection
to a puddle of self reflection
when all i wanted was a little affection
and upon further inspection on your pale complexion
i needed protection against your perfection

japanese t.v. shows that i don't understand
with a bleeding broken heart in hand
i just wanted to see your smile.
but maybe i could just sleep it off for a while
with your boots in black love bug style
and distance means nothing to the mile

we sleep away blame and we drown in our shame
to dream a dream within a scream
where nothing else was what it seemed
i just wanted to match your tears
sit silently and be consumed with fears
of never seeing your face again
my life has resulted just "remember when's"

remember when we sat at the park
i pushed you on the swing
and at the time that it got dark
thats when i heard you sing
remember when we were driving around
your mother asked of the future
and in all my silences i finally found a sound
i want to grow old with you
grey and sagged from tribulation
we could sit and drink hot tea with books and art
there would never be a complication
so long as you could keep my in your heart
remember when the pills took over
you were holding my hand
and angel in the darkness
the goodness within me was your demand
but there was none, was there?
what the shadows dancing on the walls confess

remember valentines day candy
we were watching movies
now i sit in the dark with a bottle of brandy
looking past the shadows i cant see

remember the party i was late to
but wasn't even invited
a million miles just to see you
but this love was unrequited