Broken

I've loved too many,
They all walk upon my withered soul
I fear I'm losing the energy
To stand proud and strong, I've grown cold...
I know I'm broken, perhaps that's why they all stare past
Me- the girl I wish I wasn't
Insignificant in the eyes of who I fall for so fast
No one can fathom my irritation... No one ever does.
Irritation because I can't seem to grasp who they want me to be
I try and I try, I struggle and I push,
But I can never, ever, seem to please
And I fall within the pricking bush
I bleed and writhe
But I don't try to fight
For what's the point?
I'm broken beyond anyone's care
And I know that I continuously disappoint
So they shan't ever bother to repair.
I'm a blunder in this life,
This I've come to accept
I uselessly put myself through strife
With hopes of being swept
Far, far away where I can no longer cause an issue
For now I shall breathe the very poison
I exert, this no one will dispute
And forever I shall remain irreparable and broken...