Journey of broken promises

For years you promised you'd quit
But you continued to keep a cigarette lit

For years I watched your health decline
You promised you were fine

So many times you promised you were done
I'd find you smoking still, you weren't done

So many times you lied
Countless times you made me cry

Finally you decided to give them up
But by then you had no more luck

For years the oxygen you had to wear
So angry, you treated me unfair

Then the doctors said, only a new set of lungs will do
So many rules we had to follow to get them for you

Smoke no more they told you if you want on the list
You promised everyone you done with cigarettes

They tested you often so we thought you'd know
After 2 years on the list they kick you off told you NO

You had to promised them you'd smoke no more
They gave you another test & you had a zero score

So they let you back on the list one more time they say
Just back on for 2 days when they called that day

New lungs donated that's just right for you
We were all so happy we didn't know what to do

So now you have your new lungs are in place
All your promises I begin to retrace

You promised me all the fun thing's we would do
Said we'd do them once you were a healthier you

You promised you'd make passionate love to me
But its been months and no tenderness do I see

Here we sit in front of the TV just like before
I really believed you'd give me so much more

It all seems very unfair to me
I kept all the promises I made don't you see

I promised in sickness or health to love you
I've done all the things I said I'd do

Never once have I broke my promises to you
But I am so tired of feeling so blue

Now I'm beginning to think it would only be fair
If I were to find someone else who would care

Someone else to love and cherish me
I need a man who can have fun you see

I need a man that will make me feel happy again
I need a special man to be my best friend

I'm still in my 40s I need to have passion in my life
I really thought I'd always get from you as your wife

But now my hopes & dreams are fading fast
Just not sure how much longer I can last

It's not that I don't love you, because I still do
It's just I'm not sure I'm "in" love with you

Because every time you broke your promises to me
You killed a little bit of my love but, you wouldn't see

I really don't know what I'm going to do
I just know I'm tired of feeling so blue