If Only..

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would see
That this smile covers up
All the pain I feel in me

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would realize
That behind my hair and makeup
There's a girl that cries

If you only really knew me
Maybe then you would see
That I'm a lot more messed up
Than the person I seem to be

If you only really knew me
Then I guess you would know
That there's been times I've cried myself to sleep
Coming close to letting go

If you only really knew me
You'd see I'm not so strong
I seem like I don't care
About the things that have gone wrong

And if you only really knew me
You'd see me wipe the tears away
Waking up to a morning
Another day to act okay