Those Nights

My walls seem to breathe heavily as I lay curled up
On the black sheets of a cold, unfeeling bed;
Trying to hold back the aching sobs that wrack
My subtly hunched shoulders; attempting to hold together what wants to fall apart.

The morbid ticking of the clock booming within my room,
Each new tear sliding down an already stained cheek
As thoughts of the euphoria fade away and darkness looms
Above a wary head; my heart yearning for nothing more than the smile it cannot keep.

The daydreams my mind created banished behind a locked door,
Threatening that if I merely stare, I'd gain another night of despair.
My knees shake and fall upon the floor
Showing a glimpse at the girl hiding in the depths of her own mind.

It's like fire burning hotter and larger with each pain,
Each time someone disappears. I get too close,
My fingers petting each dark flame
As it feeds off my dreams, my longings, and my hopes.