Silent Agony

The silence looms around my shaking silhoutte
As I stand, barely, against the wall
In hopes that something sturdy will support
My quaking knees before I fall.

I try to voice my pain, I try to tell you,
I feel your hand on my skin, burning with
The love I crave. My breath is strangled in my throat,
My lips pressed together, covering a scream.

These scars are just that, scars. Reminders of the tests
I've already taken and failed. My mind
Holds me hostage, my escapes into euphoria in vain
As I try to leave time after time.

My heart beats for you, reaching out through the bars
Of its cell, beckoning silently.
It wonders if you can hear, see, feel, the pain it houses
Or if you, too, are kept from it, a sad tragedy.

My breath comes ragged as the grip on my neck loosens
Though it binds my hand in shackles instead,
I call out to you desperately
As I beg for you to help me with the silent agony.