Dead inside

My body's still breathing, my hearts still beating
But internally, my soul is resentfully dieing
My emotions, I realise are fading
Into the depths where darkness is invading

The eagerness I once held have cleared
The person that was once inside has disappeared.
Disappeared.
There's no feelings persevered anymore.
There's no spirit; it's fading away in this war
There's nothing left inside, nothing to explore.

There's emptiness all conserved within
There's a door that could help me to begin
But the dark corridors lead me further away
And the confusion only leads me astray.

The words, I'm a failure, echoes repetitively
But why? is mentioned occasionally
These words I'm saying it abusively
Killing myself my mind unknowingly amorally.

Why can't I escape this imprisoning chamber?
What have I done to direct me here?
When did it begin? I want to remember
When will it end? It's getting severe

Silent thoughts re-enters my mind
With deranged feelings following behind.
Silence I gape into for hours
Killing time as time kills my powers

Blinded by these incisive thought
I'm blinded to all the cause it's brought.
Tearing myself away from bliss
Suffocating my self in confusion mists.

Trapped now, I don't know how to get out!
Chained to this afflicted wheel, I cant seem to scream or shout
Realising my emotions are drying
I give up my silent servile crying

The words, you're a disappointment, echoes repetitively
?But why? is mentioned occasionally
These words I'm saying it abusively!
Killing myself my mind unknowingly amorally.