Sometimes I wish

Sometimes I wish what I had heard was all just a lie...
Sometimes I wish I can wake up and still find you by my side
Sometimes I dream about you holding me, and other times
I find you holding someone else
Sometimes I wish I can tell you all of what I feel
But now you have a new baby and you no longer know
That I exist.
You have always held me close, you loved me in ways
No one I thought would ever know
I wish I can have you with me now, I need you more than ever
Even though you slept with someone else
I know I shouldn’t want you still, that I should scream and
Go in search of someone new
But I dream still about you
My tears are still falling for you
My heart still aches and needs you
Sometimes I wish, I can somehow stop breathing
Sometimes I wish, I can have you explain all of this
But now you have a baby and you must take Care
I don’t want to be there, I don’t want to be a third wheel
I don’t want to be there, because I can’t bare to see you with her
And that Baby
Should have been made between me and you
But now she is in the picture, I still think late at night
About how she got there in the first place
I love you still in my own way, But with you
I no longer can be
I must let you go, and let you do what is best for you and her
I am saying Good-bye,
Though I still wonder if this all has been a wicked dream.