Washed Ashore

by Baby Rainbow   Mar 16, 2014


Each new memory that jumps into my mind,
quickly becomes my fault.
Waves of confusion and guilt lead
me astray, washing me upon a familiar
shore of endless regret.

Blame must belong within myself,
for I never found the strength
to break free from their iron chains.

I let myself appear weak,
which in return, gave them permission
to control my mind and steal my body.

And as I lie here motionless upon this shore,
choking on the sea's salty water,
it is no more than I deserve. For I
should now be punished for not protecting
the innocent child that I once was.

Saffie
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27/2/14

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  • 10 years ago

    by Dagmar Wilson

    The ocean gives me a feeling of freedom and I love how you use the ocean. Never allow people to take over your identity . They will power over you and you need to break away from it. Be yourself and remain strong. Whatever happened during childhood is over and you did not have much of a choice. Now since your older try not to let this reflect on your adult life. This is amazing written. Reminds me of me.

  • 10 years ago

    by Burning Angel

    This is such a good poem.

  • 10 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    I really like the idea of the ocean, the waves, are a big body of emotions, mostly regret and guilt. You blame yourself for every bad memory from your past. It's like you are on an island, isolating yourself and reliving the past, letting each memory wash upon the shore and letting the waves of regret just knock you down.

    You think you are weak because you never broke free from their grasp, you never stood up for yourself so therefore you feel like you should blame yourself for letting it happen.

    When something happens to us and it hurts us deeply, we always look to ourselves to place the blame and we continue to dwell and replay memories in our head of things we should have said or done. It's sad because most of the time, it's never the person's fault that blames themselves.

    The ending definitely gives off the 'island' feel I was talking about in the beginning...especially with the waves knocking you down.

    You think you should be punished, that you deserve this kind of mental torture because of the times you didn't protect yourself as a child. :(

    Hugs <3

    You always write heartbreaking words that touch me so very much, Saff. I hope you find peace and can move on to an island that is filled of paradise instead of regret.

  • 10 years ago

    by Beautiful Soul

    I really liked the metaphor you used here. It seems like the waves are your negative emotions and you cannot control them anymore. With each new memory you see or think about the more emotional you become inside. The second stanza tore me because we always blame ourselves when we get hurt when it's never our fault. Though you may appear weak you are not because you survived this. I did like the wording though. There is always a tiny bit of hope inside and that hope can be a light. But the ending is sad. You wash upon the shores of your mind and now you are more lost than you were before. You were once a happy and outgoing child but now its very hard. Good write

  • 10 years ago

    by Angel

    Nice one