How can I move on if you won't let me go? And I know that it hurts when I don't show you how I feel. But my pain is real and we could seal this with a kiss but it won't make you miss me any less. And I tried my best to get some rest but I found a way to mess that up too. And you watched us fall and didn't come through and now I am gone and there is nothing that either of us can do. But please believe me when I say I will miss you too and all I can do is look for someone who might understand me for who I am. And I hope you do the same because I wouldn't blame you for finding a better man.
You never understood how I could just be sad or why I needed someone to just be there to hold my hand and my mind is like quicksand and there has never been an escape for me. So don't dive in on my account, let me drown because living is hard and sometimes I just don't know how. Stop my breathing, stop my speaking, stop my beating heart. Stop my seething, stop my thinking, stop this painful waiting.
You wanted to know and begged me to show you how I feel. But I have bad news, lover. It won't make you feel any better.
