The smile i wear

The smile I wear is just a mask on the face of pain I hold inside stood out in the rain so lost sometimes I don't know why I try to survive in this world each day I tell the people I love I'm alright its all a lie.

The smile I wear is just an illusion by day I act all okay hiding away the hurt keeping it at bay at night I cry alone in the dark the tears fall my fears come alive I lay awake looking at the ceiling hoping I'll get the feeling of happiness once more.

The smile I wear is to hide the pain deep down so they don't think I'm crazy but maybe they are right sleep is the only thing I enjoy I just wish to rest in piece never wake up from my sleep I wish I could make the pain go away trapped in an endless maze.

The smile I wear is to hide the fact that the hurt is crippling my heart i can't find a way out i may smile i may laugh I guess I must pay for all the mistakes I've made all I hear is people say there's no reason for me to be sad people have it worse I know but try be happy when your heart is shattered battered like I never mattered.

The smile I wear is just a cover up the pain I suffer a cover up of all the scars I have in my world they are no stars in the sky I just wish someone will hold me tight look right into my eyes make everything alright no one understands me I don't know what gods plan is for me.

The smile I wear is to hold the tears back from falling from breaking down I'll act like a clown always trying to make a joke when I'm the joke I've always been a loser of the game of life I just wish to take the knife end it all I've lost control I ain't whole lost my soul I've pushed people away too much to the point I'm alone.

I'm afraid to live I'm afraid to die I'm afraid to love I'm afraid of someone loving me I'm afraid to care Afraid to be the forgotten guy.