Trapped in a daydream

There is a cage around my brain
Sitting on a swing of emotion
Steadying the sway is an autopilot pill

I am no longer capable of anger
Cannot truly show my love
My existence regurgitates a haze

People speak to me behind doors
In faraway corridors, sniggering
Have I heard them? Will I ever truly listen?

I only see momentous monotony
Taste palpitations of worthlessness
Desire indifference, chase away potential

Hold a candle to my eye
You will see the back of my head
Smell no change in fortune

Time is the only key
But do I embrace the notion?
Will I allow thought processes a connection?

Bellow this fire in my heart
It has slumbered
The fuel of rhyme and reason diminished

If there are only 21 steps in my mind
I have sat down, on step 11
Unwilling to go up, nor down

I can see where I want to be
But it only exists in dreams
And in the eyes of believers

I no longer believe in anything
A fight lost in entrapment
Optimism ovulated by my fear

At least in my daydreams I am smiling
The world only exists around me
I am merely an entity of humanity

Drag me to each destination
Force a journey on my mind
Know that I may never drink that water.

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Can't really remember this one, maybe I wrote it then deleted it.