16 years old,
A baby on the way.
God, I don't know what to say.
Maybe it's a mistake,
Or perhaps it was meant to be.
So many things to say,
To so many people.
Why has this happened to me?
Because I wasn't careful,
Because I thought I was special,
And it wouldn't,
Couldn't happen,
To someone like me.
But it did,
And is has,
Now what do you think of me?
To the father of this baby,
That's growing inside of me,
I hope you can see,
I never meant for this to be.
I still love you with all my heart,
I have right from the start.
I know you won't be mad,
But yet you won't fully be glad.
You and I aren't ready,
But the choice has been made already.
We made our choices,
And now we must accept the consequences.
The only regret I have,
Is wishing we'd waited two years.
We knew the chances,
but it didn't stop our advances.
We slept together,
And we've created something,
That will be ours forever.
And to my mother,
I'm sorry I've done this to you.
You told me what would happen,
But I didn't really have a clue.
I know your disappointed,
And angry with me.
But can't you see?
I do want this child,
I've secretly wanted it for a while.
Though my age is young,
My maturity is not.
I just pray,
You'll forgive me,
And be there for me the best you can be.
I need you more than ever,
I hope you'll stay around.
Please don't desert me,
I'm truly sorry for the pain I've caused you,
But nothing can change what will happen.
I love you mom,
Even if you can no longer love me.
And to my biological dad,
You've never really been around.
For years I never heard a sound.
But now you're in my life,
And although we're still not tight,
I'm scared of what your impression of me,
Has changed to be.
You probably still love me,
But you can never see what drives me to want this.
Don't blame yourself,
Even if you never gave me a kiss.
It's not your fault,
That's not even a rational thought.
I love you,
And my baby will love you too.
And to everyone else who knows me,
It won't be any easier for you to see,
Just how much happiness is inside of me.
And for those of you,
Who think I shouldn't,
I won't give this baby up,
I couldn't.
You may think a baby can't grow up in a world like this,
But I'll raise the child,
The best I can.
He/She will be my everything,
And all three of us will have a new beginning.
Things will be hard,
But you just have to lay your cards down,
And play them the best you can.
To everyone,
Please try to understand,
I'll stand by this child,
Whether you want me to or not.
It's mine and my lover's,
We'll always have the last say.
We refuse to make our child,
Pay for our thoughtfulness.
