Save me

If I asked you to tell me I'll be OK will you?
If I needed to know would you reassure me?
If I'm worth saving would you do it?
Or would it be death that sets me free?

They say time is supposed to heal all wounds,
They say pain is supposed to make you stronger,
But the days are cold and dreadful,
The nights are lonely and longer.

I long for what we once had,
Love and faith with an emotional bond,
My heart breaks more every second of the day,
I feel like I'm drowning in a shallow pond.

Slipknots snuff and Taylor swifts all too well
Are running through my head,
Would it be better if I just left you alone forever?
Would it be better if I were dead?

Demi's song plays through my head,
Line after line hitting me hard,
This isn't about them or you it's about me,
Trying to pick myself up and getting cut on every shard.

It's funny how things used to be,
How a single event can change your life,
That night I Went to the kitchen,
With the tendency of grabbing a knife.

I'd lost everything I once had loved,
And my life no longer mattered,
My broken heart which you'd once made whole
Was left alone and shattered.

So there I stood with the knife in hand,
Ready to end it all,
I knew my life was over,
I was ready to take the fall.

I was tired of being hurt,
Tired of never having any say,
I just wanted to stop breathing forever,
And never see the light of day.

I broke down one night not to long after,
Begging god to let me see you,
I knew I couldn't end it,
It's never been something I was able to do.

Now here I am all over again,
Begging to be saved,
But this time there's no way out,
My entire life has caved.

If there's one thing you should know,
And one thing you should see,
You missed the signs of my silent pleas.
As I was begging you to save me.