I finally figured out why i am was and am so hopelessly in love with you.
our combined melodraticism and belief that the world had 0 in the way of positivity but somehow we managed to care for and be totally in love with each other and it was suddenly not just one of us living out our awful life sentence but both of us accepting it and living it out together - it was incredibly romantic and pathetic all at the same time. but it made for fantastic sex. id never been so thrilled to display every negative emotion pent up inside and have it play out in such intense sensations and evoke every emotion of the rainbow as i did with you. every minute was the most fantastic and horrible minute of my life.
