The moment I knew

Silent screams and heartbreaking pleas,
all i need is for you to be there,
But i've already texted you a hundred times,
And another call I do not dare.

You have always been here when I need you most,
So where are you at now?
The cuts on my side are stinging,
And once again to my razor do I want to bow.

The nights have changed from long to short,
and the days have gone from short to long,
Searching through every dreaded space in my heart,
Listening to our god damn song.

Trying to find a will to live,
I take a deep breath and let out my tears,
My sobs are quiet; covered in a pillow,
losing you is one of my biggest fears.

five days left with your beautiful face,
But I haven't seen or heard from you in three,
They all say I need to give you up,
I need to work me.

But me is hard and you are all I have,
When you leave I'll have nothing left,
The day I met you you stole my heart,
You crazy little god damn theft.

But I love you to death and I always will,
No matter how far apart we are,
Four months is short to a lifetime,
and tonight you wont be far.

You mean a lot to me,
You touch every place in my heart,
But baby, I can't live without you,
With you my life has a new start.

Things are rough outside of us,
And in this world you keep me sane,
You're so kind, caring and gentle,
I just hope letting you in wasn't in vain.

But the first day i met you,
And your eyes met mine, both beautifully blue,
You took one look at me and smiled,
And that was the moment I knew...