Little options

Little did I know

It was the opposite

And now,
now I think I can,
I think I can if I' have control of my own space.
I can if she lets me
If I can let myself in

I'm scared cuz I feel like leaving, I feel like leaving this world
Because I wasn't supposed to be here, is what I think and feel

but then..

And you know, I'm now doing both cuz I'm feeling and thinking both
I can't find the choices or the options in life and I don't want to feel this, feel this heavy pain in there.
and then I don't know if i'm confused.
and at the end I will see how things will go.