Fallen

First time, you were standing there.
Came along just like a storm.
I’ve got blinded straight away.
Haven’t seen your smile yet torn.

Sun was shining on your mask.
Oh God... It was beautiful!
I was seduced. Fell for you.
You have ripped out my soul.

As time revealed your true face,
Opened up I felt you’re mine...
Letting me in, I have found
The inner beauty most divine!

All I wanted, just to prove,
Truthful love exist’, indeed!
You resisted, but I asked:
Don’t believe but feel my deed’...

I was gifted on that night.
You have fallen in my arm.
I offered you all I could have!
Only giving! Meant no harm!

I pulled you close, held you firm,
Looked in your eyes... Felt your heart.
Bleeding pain I understood
Why to trust me was so hard.

Knowing you were there and safe,
After your whole life at stake,
I’ve got selfish. Ruined‘t all.
I have made a big mistake.

I tasted you. Your presence.
I’ve got drunk of your soft skin.
As I touched your hair, your face,
Was no return from the sin.

I held your hand. So, so gorgeous!
And me purely be around,
Still not asking any return!
Repaid with the feel I found.

You shared all your tears with me.
I kept dreaming more and more;
Touching your scars with my lips,
Please you, heal you once for all.

My aim was to see you happy,
But I’ve got you scared away.
Next morning you were all but gone.
All I have left pray all day.

Still can smell you on my pillow,
In the same darkness you slept.
I lied. Your look did work on me.
That’s the memory I kept.

Once again, I came up short.
Solitude! Oh, good old friend...
Come, walk with me. I’m unwanted,
Nothing has changed. Don’t pretend!

Bless her with the joy of life!
And forgive me I’m weakly built!
I can choose acts but not feelings...
Truly love her. That’s my guilt...