Broken Promises

Don't look at me baby, as you grab me by the throat,
The carelessness in facade, is what hurts me the most,
Nails in skin, teeth in flesh,
Is this really how you love me best?

It kills me as I scream,
This has to be a bad dream,
You would never...raise your hand to strike,
Your actions cut deeper than a knife.

Every bruise you left, and every welt,
Hurt more than I've ever felt,
As a throbbing heart struggled to beat,
Like ice, I drip as I feel your heat.

Greens are storms, no longer calm,
As you strike to cause more harm,
A crack with the last, you broke my bones,
They shattered for you, and now I'm alone.

I'll never know why, you see me as dirt,
I guess I'll never know why for the hurt,
But then you hold me, tears in eyes,
yet it is always me who dies.

Never you, for I never wish to do this to you,
This pain for me is nothing new,
I wish for your anger there was a cure,
Where is this recipe so obscure.

"Please baby, stop" I say as I'm crying,
With every blow, inside I'm dying,
I cannot keep breathing with every breath you steal,
The bruises never have time to heal.

"I'm sorry" you whisper "This is the last time"
"Please stay with me, I need you to be mine"
I listen, I quiver, I shake to your touch,
I am wrong to think my love is enough.

Tears blinked away, smile forced onto face,
I am your doll, your beautiful disgrace,
I'll fix myself, be your perfection,
As long as there is never a next time.

"But there will be" cries a frightened thought,
"He won't listen, your pleas mean nought"
"But he loves me" I scream, almost dead.
"That's a lie...he never truly did"

And it is easier to disconnect, rub emotions away,
For if I don't, I surely will stay,
I couldn't be perfect, for I am human,
And I will leave you...so this won't happen..ever..again.