I hate you But I love you!

I hate everything about you!
So why do I love you?
I have put tattoos on myself for you,
I have cried for you,
And what do you do?
Nothing of course.
I could be just like you,
I could smoke pot for you,
I could be gothic for you too.
But what will I get in return?
Another broken heart after you take me back,
And spit me out again?
I don’t want to hurt anymore Devin.
I want us to be happy with or without each other,
But I rather it be together.
I can’t think straight without you,
What is happening to me?
Maybe I should have never thought we could be something,
Maybe I should just go bury myself in a hole.
I love you Devin,
I just wish you could understand my pain.
Im not saying I’m going to do something stupid,
Like slit my wrists or O.D. on drugs,
Life is worth more than a guy,
But out of all the guys I’ve ever met,
You the one I wont forget!