Pain and Time

So many words have been spoken,
Written in these scars,
In these notebooks as well,
Wearing that mask,
That damn mask that everyone sees,
The fact that I have to act so strong,
And wear a smile,
Laugh when I want to cry,
Wiping away the tears,
Just slapping that smile on so no one sees,
No one sees how truly broken I am,
I try to tell myself to not hide behind the mask,
But I know if I show me being broken,
I'll be taken away,
Which will break me more,
I don't get why its me,
Why I have to be the one to act happy,
Why I feel like I'm the mess,
So please,
All I ask,
Grab me by my hand,
And remove this mask if you wanna see,
What I hide from the world,
The internal pain,
The pain I carry for everyone else,
The real broken me,
The one that causes these entries,
The fact I just wanna die,
But I'll act happy for you,
For one more lifetime,
So you don't have to see me hurting