suicide

Every day I take on a lot
I go out my way
I do everything from the heart

Still, I say nothing
I keep it all to myself

I just want the pain to stop
My chest gets tight
I cry in silence
Yet I still feel like I’m drowning

I help everyone else
Where is my help?

Mentally breaking
Suffocating
I just want to be free

No one to hurt me
Not family
Not Courtney

Maybe just be in a better place
Just completely in peace
And everyone moves on
Live their lives

Maybe than

They just might care
Love me
See me
hear me

Until than
Let me share
my darkness with you

Thoughts of suicide exist
Contemplating
Should I
Should I not

Every time
She exists
Depression rises
The devil persists

Just take this pill
Take some more
end your life
Nobody cares

Maybe than

They just might care
Love me
See me
hear me
While I was still there