Open up

My skin's like an accordion
With pale indents all around
To illustrate my failures
And the times I let you down

I merely wished to open up,
But I struggle with my words
So I opened up another way
Looking back it seems absurd

When I couldn't cope with what I felt
And my thoughts became too much
Or if I deserved some punishment
I'd apply a silver touch

In the moment it relieved me
But that peace soon fled away
And I was left to tend an ache
And the scars I knew would stay

The thing I once let soothe me
Now has caused so much more pain
When I look into my past, I see
I'm the only one to blame

Now I must conceal them
All the marks left on my skin
I would love to open up
But now I can't let you in

- Obscure
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