Dear Friend, Chapter 2: I’m Here Again

Its that time,
That time of year,
Knowing you're gone,
Knowing I won't see you again,
I'm here at the bench like we promised to do,
Having lunch together and catching up,
Reflecting on who we were,
Who we wanted to be,
But its not the same,
Its not the same as ten years ago,
Ten years ago you were still here,
Still embracing me,
Telling me that you're proud of me,
But its been five years,
Five years of me doing it on my own,
Five years of me being afraid,
I shouldn't be mad at you for leaving me,
But you chose to leave me,
When I was most vulnerable,
Coming out to the world about myself,
I know you just wanted to get rid of those thoughts,
So do I but, I'M STILL HERE,
I got you a few roses this year,
I still have been paying your phone bill,
Just so I can hear your voice,
Where everyone has told me just to leave you be,
But I can't help hearing your voice,
It kept me calm through it all,
But its time for me to go,
I'll see you next year