Was I just your back up plan for when you were lonely,
or did you just always see a weakness in me?
Am I not what you thought you would find,
or did you get shocked by all that was in my mind?
Did I do you wrong because I was never going to be
who you had in your head what you wanted in me,
and you failed to change me enough to satisfy
what you wanted to create in me.
Did you ever see my soul at all,
or were you hoping you could change it
if I let you crawl deep enough in?
Regret is growing bigger now,
to know I let you get too close,
revealing parts of me that I kept hidden deep inside,
until you came around.
I am aware that I can't replace people unlike you,
but I wish somehow I could replace the memories,
because I'm running out of memories I want to keep,
but tell me,
if we both leave completely empty,
what was it all even for?
