Epiphany

Excuses, looks like that's all you’ll get from me
You can check the signal but it looks like it’s back to LTE

I need to tune you out, xbox controller in hand and headphones on
Music playing and it’s turned up cause this is my favorite song

Couldn’t let myself get addicted to silence it’s to easy to put your life on hold
Tried to play cards with my life but never chance it before I fold

I’ve thrown these memories down, expecting 2 aces to continue the game
But someone always trumps me, one royal flush and I’m not the same

It can be so overwhelming, feeling things or not feeling them at all
Procrastinating, doing everything possible to stall

I used to purposely avoid my own self worth
Forced myself to forget how much caring can hurt

Staring in a mirror I can see how much I’ve let myself be my own worst enemy
Accepting now that I’ve hurt myself more than anyone else could hurt me

Can’t believe how it feels to finally say it out loud
I’m almost afraid to say it but I feel proud