thin mints

you've removed all the words out of this library throat. no matter how i try to scream and sing there's nothing left. my mind is a dry well on a hot summers day and when i think of you the sun just sits higher and higher. you've stolen all the laughter from the playground of my heart.

and your ache fits into my ache, a cross stitch of colors no one else can see. your sky fits into my sky because night and day are eternal lovers. because our story is one they've been writing forever. because my heart hurts. because i am so quiet and my hurt is so loud.

i’ll keep writing you these words. i’ll keep these thin mints here for you. my heart will try to escape this cage of my chest when my skin thinks of the way you held me. almost like i was something worth holding onto. two halves of the same flame, fated and flawed with sheets as black as shadows. splaying out as big as my fear of abandonment, your fear of commitment too.

i can be kind to you, even now, even still. i can be kind to you in a hundred different bodies. even when you’re shaped like someone else, i can forgive you.